Am I where I wanted to be? 1 year blog anniversary

Is this where I pictured myself when I started this blog a year ago? (this is also my 299th post!)

Not quite.

This time last year, I was 30 years old, living with my boyfriend in an apartment in the student ghetto, weighed about 136-137 pounds, was a teaching assistant and was pretty damned confused about where life was headed.

Today, I am 31, call that boyfriend my fiance, live in my (way too big for me!) childhood home because my father died, am unemployed, and weigh 127.4 pounds and am no longer confused about where life is going (though it is still going to be a surprise about how it all turns out!).

Hmmm.

Some awesome things happened, some not great at all things happened. And I suppose - that is life!

But as far as the things I can control, I am in a better place.

I am 10 full pounds lighter than I was a year ago!! That blows my mind, that that happened in my 30th year. I finally realized something about eating/nutrition/exercise/balance. It is so hard to put into words, and that's not quite what this post is about. This post is about the fact that in this past year - I've learned. I've gotten where I want to go. I spent most of this year under 130 pounds, in fact, once I got under 130 pounds in the early summer... I never again went over.

That is a huge win in my book. HUGE.

I had gotten down to 121 pounds in the fall - but that was because I was grieving and not eating. Not a good or sustainable way to get to a low weight. I know I want to be under 125 by my wedding. And I have not a doubt that I will get there.

Biggest lesson of the year: don't hurt your one and only body! take care of it!

In my 30 years, I have hurt my body by overeating and undereating and stupideating. That is over. It's been over for a year. I will keep it that way.

Am I where I pictured myself? No.

Am I where I want to be? .... Yes!

Things happened this year I couldn't control. But the other things - I believe I stepped up to the plate this year. I took control. I set priorities. I made it here.

Well!!

I also had a goal this month that by today, my blog anniversary, I would be back on track with health and fitness. And I am :D There is no downward spiral. I'm on the way up!

Thank you, blog world, for reading and commenting - it helps so much. It keeps me accountable knowing there are others watching. This is stuff I don't always share with my friends, but I consider you my friends now. You have helped me this past year, helped me stay grounded, stay focused.

Here's to another year of progress.

Things will happen I cannot control. I will be sad and happy and down and up. It's life. But I will persevere.

Namaste.