I have had thoughts about not updating this blog.
I really don't want to be accountable anymore!
I want to sleep all day, eat whatever tastes good, stop cleaning the house and not worry about the dog anymore.
I don't think I will do any of these things, but I have to admit - it is something a part of me wants.
I got home today from another terrible and draining day at work and immediately fell asleep. I am exhausted all the time.
So stressed about the job situation.... I lose my job in three weeks and other than a four week teaching job, I have no prospects. This stresses me out intensely. Job stress on top of grief and moving and dealing with a dog that requires more energy than I would have on my best day....
Makes me wish I was the kind of person who could just give up.
Going to try not to go silent and fall into these destructive wants.