Things, on the outside, appear stable.
My life, my weight, the dog, the house, money..... it all SEEMS to be holding steady, going well.
It is kind of strange, since I seem all a mess inside. But I will take what I can get.
Chris took me out to lunch at work today (he is traveling and I have been daily commuting out to his site so I see him for a few hours a day during the week lately, which is nice. It is not as nice as having him home in the evenings, but I will take what I can get). I ate a little more than usual for lunch, but I am paring down my dinner to make up for it.
TV night is tonight. I am going because I want to see people I love and that make me laugh. I am going to try not to drink or overeat because of the social-ness, though.
Got in a ton of activity today, four miles of walks and three hours of carting a 30 pound bucked up and down a hill. It was fine. I am fine. Still holding out in pretty good shape despite the lack of workouts. Just moving, moving, moving every day.... if you don't use it, you lose it, kind of deal :)
I am seeing a lot of crazy weight fluctuations in the blogs I read. Lots of gains. Some huge losses after those gains. Some people just plain gaining. The holidays are CRAZY. So I am hoping to start the New Year at 125, just holding steady. I would have loved to be at 120.... but I realize that that is going to take a LOT of work to get and maintain. It is work, I am quite simply, not willing to put in right now. But I AM willing to put in the effort to stay at my current weight.... I didn't gain over the last holiday season, I refuse to do it this year.
Namaste.
There's a lot of validity in the saying, "fake it 'til you make it," Jeanette. Keeping up the appearance of normalcy brings a certain confidence and ability to make normalcy, eventually. There's a lot of weirdness going on all over the blogosphere these days...lots of MIAs, lots of confusion and whatnot.
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