Another loss......

Well, though expected that I would lose my Grandma this year, it still was a rough thing to go through.

She passed last night, and we all must have sensed something in the air because all the family that was in the area (her sons, their wives, their children) all gathered to be with her last night. Chris was luckily in town and went with me after work. We all hung out in her room at the hospital, chatting amongst each other, telling her we loved her, etc. She left us about 3 hours after everyone had first gathered. I think she was happy that we were all there. It was peaceful, and we got to hold her hands and let her know how loved she was the moment she passed.

She was 99 and was sharp and alert her whole life, lived in her own 2 story home right up until Christmas when she went to the hospital. She was witty and loving and incredibly strong. She was the epitome of a grandma! Sweet, generous, and really adorable :) I am her namesake - Jeanette.

I'm so sad. Probably more sad for me and for those she left behind. She was tired. She had lost her siblings, her friends, and also her son (my dad). She was ready to go.

I just...

I had her in my life longer than I had my parents.

She was the last bit of my immediate, older family. It's just me and my brother now.

I went to her house for all the holidays. It's where the family gathered.

I'm not heartbroken, soul wrenched destroyed like I was when my father passed. I'm just sad. I'm going to miss her. A lot. She was awesome and it sucks that she's not here anymore, though it just was normal and natural.

So, yeah. I guess I'll be busy with that stuff for a while... wake, funeral, dealing with her house and things and stuff...

I'm tired :(