Friday, January 16, 2015

Another loss......

Well, though expected that I would lose my Grandma this year, it still was a rough thing to go through.

She passed last night, and we all must have sensed something in the air because all the family that was in the area (her sons, their wives, their children) all gathered to be with her last night. Chris was luckily in town and went with me after work. We all hung out in her room at the hospital, chatting amongst each other, telling her we loved her, etc. She left us about 3 hours after everyone had first gathered. I think she was happy that we were all there. It was peaceful, and we got to hold her hands and let her know how loved she was the moment she passed.

She was 99 and was sharp and alert her whole life, lived in her own 2 story home right up until Christmas when she went to the hospital. She was witty and loving and incredibly strong. She was the epitome of a grandma! Sweet, generous, and really adorable :) I am her namesake - Jeanette.

I'm so sad. Probably more sad for me and for those she left behind. She was tired. She had lost her siblings, her friends, and also her son (my dad). She was ready to go.

I just...

I had her in my life longer than I had my parents.

She was the last bit of my immediate, older family. It's just me and my brother now.

I went to her house for all the holidays. It's where the family gathered.

I'm not heartbroken, soul wrenched destroyed like I was when my father passed. I'm just sad. I'm going to miss her. A lot. She was awesome and it sucks that she's not here anymore, though it just was normal and natural.

So, yeah. I guess I'll be busy with that stuff for a while... wake, funeral, dealing with her house and things and stuff...

I'm tired :(


  1. So sorry for your loss. May your happy and fond memories of her bring some peace during this difficult time.

  2. My good thoughts and prayers go out to you. Your grandma sounds like a wonderful person :)

  3. I'm so sorry for your loss ... my thoughts and prayers are with you ... Sounds like your grandma's passing was peaceful event ... I am sure she felt blessed and at ease with her family there loving her!

  4. My sincere condolences Jeanette. The experiences and memories you shared with her over the years will get you through the tough times and the moments of grief. Sending good thoughts and virtual hugs your way.

  5. So sorry for your loss, Jeanette - those of us who are/were blessed with awesome grandmas are lucky. I lost mine last year at 94 years old - and totally get the sad feeling. I miss her "grandma-ness" Remember to take care of yourself!

  6. So sorry you lost your grandmother. It sounds like she was wonderful. Blessings to all of your family.

  7. So so sorry for your loss .......... my thoughts are with you.

    God Bless


  8. Sorry to hear of your grandmother's passing. It sounds like a blessing that you all were able to spend the last moments with her.

  9. Oh sweetie, I am so very sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers. You are lucky to have her as long as you did. Be kind and gentle with yourself as you mourn. :)

  10. Wow, 99 is something to celebrate! So sad to lose your parents first though. Losing parents and grandparents always makes us look at our lives in a different way. How wonderful you had her in your life for so many years.

  11. Sorry for your loss. So hard to say goodbye. I keep my relatives' memories alive for my daughter by telling stories and funny memories about the person. She didn't get to meet most of them, so it's a good way for her to learn and me to remember.

    Take care and feel your grief feelings rather than eating them. I know you know that, but repetition is good. :)

  12. So sorry for your loss. I understand how you must feel. I lost all grandparents and both parents years ago. I didn't expect to be in the last living generation of my family at 43. My thoughts are with you.