It's just that I feel these issues are at the CORE of getting healthy and fit.
Most of us get obese because of emotional pain and the inability to deal with that pain. We eat to soothe something, because we don't know what else to do.
Trauma (losing my mother to cancer at a young age) and the inability to emotionally deal with that caused me to gain weight through my teens till I ended up obese all through college. I refuse to let the newest trauma and emotional pain in my life to cause me to end up the same way. It does a disservice to me, my body, my spirit and the people whose passing caused the pain.
So, yes, I will talk about fitness and nutrition and all of that. But I am also here to talk about your spirit and heart.
I have been going a little extra spiritual lately, but that's because the pain is rising inside of me. I have to experience the pain and think about it and deal with it in order to not become sick because of it.
This is maintenance. This is growing. This is learning not to repeat patterns. This is change.
Weighing in at 122.2 this morning. Good number for me (especially since that time of the month is near). And also proof, that despite sleepless nights and stress and grief crashing over me - I am in control. I am in pain, yes, but that is life and THAT is a hard lesson to learn.
Life is also really beautiful :)
Took the dog for a walk first thing this morning, ate a coconut milk yogurt, and am right where I am supposed to be.
I'll leave you with a little healthy food meme I saw:
Namaste.
Too true Jeanette. Sometimes I think my grief over losing my father in November has faded, but then waves of grief come back again.
ReplyDeleteI keep in my that we only have one life to live and it's better to live fully in the light rather than merely exist in the dark.
I'm so sorry you are smack dab in the middle of your grief, Jeannette. It's very much to be expected with your wedding so close, though. You are missing your parents terribly because you want them at the wedding and it's a tragedy that neither can be there. Please give yourself the gift of time to work through this. I know you will. I honestly believe your parents will be beaming ear-to-ear right over your shoulder...at your wedding. They may not be there the way you want them there, but they WILL BE THERE. :)
ReplyDeleteGrief is a process. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with everything. You are extremely inspirational.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you are right where you are suppose to be, and are embracing life, pain, joy, and all ;) Keep at it girl!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the parsley picture too...I have tons of it in my herb garden. I should just got grab some and munch on it..ha!