Well, it's my birthday - 33.
I turned 30 graciously, no crisis to be seen!
Every year past 30, I start to cringe a little. I don't think it's really because I fear aging, but because I am not where I saw myself being at this age. I want security, I want children, I want to be done with school.
Alas - acceptance is something I always have to work on. I got myself here and it isn't going to change over night. I'm working on ALL of those things I mentioned above, so hopefully by next year, I will be much closer to my goals (or have achieved them!).
I went to TV night last night to watch Survivor with my friends - got treated to some coconut milk ice cream and macaroons! Chris made sure my treats were paleo-friendly :) I also ate some strawberries and vegetable chips. I've been really, really, really spot-on with my food for over a month now, so I felt no guilt in eating some extra calories than I normally would.
I am not sure if it was the excess sugar or the fact that I snacked late at night (9 PM... I usually don't eat after 7 PM), but I woke up around 4 AM in a feverish sweat with waves of nausea! It took about a half hour to get my body temps back to normal and to relax enough to fall back asleep (till 5:55, which is when I wake up, haha).
I think I have been eating so clean and so right for my body, that it was a little shocked by the change. Yikes. I didn't weigh in this morning because I figured I can give myself a break - especially since I already know my body didn't really like what had happened the day before. No need to drive home the point :)
But, anyway, I had a GREAT night with my friends - I belly laughed in a way I haven't done in a long time. My sides hurt when I got home :)
Chris treated me to a few cute presents this morning (I always ask him not to spend too much money on me, the peace of mind of having bills paid is much more of a gift to me than any other material thing!).
So, it's not a crazy big birthday celebration, and I am not exactly at peace with the passage of time right now, haha, but I had a really nice day yesterday and expect to have another one today. There's not much more I can ask!
Namaste, my friends.