I just wanted to share.
I finally got around to clearing out my dad's desk (1 1/2 years later, ha)... And I found calendar pages he had ripped out and kept, marking important days in his life.
This was the day my mom died:
He was a strong, sweet man who did more than I ever credited him for. He did his best. I finally understand the strength it must have taken to raise a young family after his wife died... I wish I could tell him how sorry I am that he lost her, sorry for the pain he went through. I was always so focused on my own pain.
I miss him. I wish he was here.
Back to normal programming tomorrow.
Namaste, my friends.
This is beautiful Jeanette. What an amazing relic you have found. Frame that! :)
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful, and sad - what a treasure!. I've always found it a bit jarring when my age, and more recently, becoming a parent, has changed my perspective on my own parents.
ReplyDeleteBless you Jeanette, this is beautiful and so very touching. All I can do is send you a hug across the miles until Chris can hug you for real.
ReplyDeleteBrought tears to my eyes this morning. Treasure that relic. Also, what a truly fantastic idea to mark important days on a calendar like that. I think I'll take a lesson from your dad and start doing that myself. Thank you for sharing that.
ReplyDeleteThe emotion just leaps from the page. You're lucky that you have pages from his old-fashioned blog :) Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteSo beautiful, so touching. I think your Dad knows what you wish you could tell him now. I think he's always known.
ReplyDeleteThat is just so lovely. How sad you must have felt to find this. Very special and thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteWOW.. this brought me to tears... hope that little piece of him brings you peace... from reading your blog I think he raised a lovely daughter - thanks for sharing - Linda
ReplyDeleteOMG, that is heart-breaking, and soooo special. Please frame and keep on your desk or dresser, if you can emotionally handle it. It's a gift for you to have found that. Your dad (and mom) were hovering over your shoulder, in the room with you...when you did. I KNOW IT. :)
ReplyDeletep.s. your dad KNOWS how you feel. Please don't ever doubt that. :)
ReplyDeleteWow. Heart breaking and yet so lovely.
ReplyDeleteHugs.
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