Practical vs. Dreamer sides of me: trip to Japan

The bed is so warm and cozy, I am blogging from it as we speak :)

I drank wine last night with Chris, so my weight is up and I feel a little bloated. Ah, well. Exercise is on the docket for today as my muscles feel TONS better... still sore, but not "oh god I can't walk down the stairs" sore anymore. Just pleasantly sore.

Tons of stuff going on in my life, so much stuff that I am having a hard time sleeping for all the demanding thoughts whirling around my brain. It's not all bad stuff... actually, very little of it is bad stuff.

I would say the bad stuff that is occupying me right now is finances and frustration with the painters I hired.

Good stuff: wedding planning, bridesmaid dress shopping, planning our honeymoon, school work.

I am nervous to finalize the honeymoon. It's a ton of money, but my brother is paying half as our wedding present. Once in a lifetime trip to Japan... seeing Mt. Fuji, staying in a ryokan, biking through rice fields, seeing snow monkeys at the hot springs, eating REAL sushi, etc, etc. We would be going to places like Tokyo, Kyoto, Matsumoto, Nagano and a few other little out of the ways towns.

I am nervous because I don't feel I have any right to spend so much money on a trip. But I have saved my whole life for a down payment on a house... and now we don't need to put a down payment on a house. I have a bunch of money that I spent 15 years saving.... I should not feel guilty about spending it on something like this. It's my one life, I don't have to spend the whole time squirreling away money in Albany, NY. I should go see and live and do.

(that little nagging, super practical side of me does not approve of the above paragraph! ... saying I wouldn't be worrying about finances in other parts of my life if I just don't go on a trip, duh)

This isn't putting us into the poor house, though. I will still have some savings after I pay for the trip (it's a guided trip that includes all lodging and transportation and activity fees, etc). And it's our honeymoon! So.... I think I am going to do it. Maybe today! We will see, I am still nervous.

Namaste, friends... live it up :)